The hard rock miner died last night, a beefy man, a strong man, with the soft-sad eyes of a thoughtful child.
His name was Neil. He’d been a miner most of his life. He chewed Copenhagen and played guitar (he loved hard rock). In Vietnam he’d been awarded the Silver Star for an act of great courage.
After the war, at twenty-five, he went to work in a uranium mine outside Moab called The Gentleman Sloan. Two years later, he moved into the coal-mining country of east-central Wyoming. Then, at age thirty-one, he drove down to the spiky mountains of southwestern Colorado and began working in a gold mine called The Equity, which is where he remained for the rest of his life.
His end began suddenly, less than ten months ago, when he was only fifty-eight-years-old. He found, one unforgettable evening, a terrifying eruption of crystal-like growths all along his ribcage. His doctors punched cylindrical core samples out his skin. They drilled him full of holes and loaded him with tubes like tiny sticks of dynamite, blasting caps of pinkish-blue. Cancer is what they found. Cancer blooming like clusters of quartz everywhere beneath his skin.
The strangeness of this was not lost on him: that something so small could take down a man his size—a man so living and vital, a man, in short, like him. He hadn’t expected to die this way. He thought his end would come in the cold dark caves among the echo-drip of black water, or from blacklung.
Or perhaps on his way home from work one star-sprent frozen night, a wall of white would come pounding down out of the galactic blackness above, building in a moment a skyscraper of snow atop him and his jeep. But it had not been so.
Enraged, he cursed at first. And overnight his skin went totally slack, the flesh about the bones—a padding—melting like candlewax. His temples grew indrawn, clustered with silver veins. For reasons the doctors could not explain, the cave of his mouth began to morph so that his palate became a ceiling of ribbed rock, tasting of sulfur and sprouting miniature stalactites of limey tissue, or bone. The gold-and-copper of his hair, which had lasted him his whole life, now faded to galena threads, threads of winking lead.
Over the years, the mines had exacted heavy tolls upon his health, as mines so often will. A chronic cough plagued him the last decade of his life. He had poor blood circulation, his veins dying like underground streams inside his skin, and his skin, from head-to-toe, transparent, mica-thin.
Twenty years previous, on a cold autumn morning, while he was exploring an abandoned shaft, he was brought up short by an iron fist clenching inside his chest; it sent him running back in the direction he had come. He’d barely made it. Lack of oxygen, they said, had caused a small heart attack. Thereafter his “ticker” (as he termed it) was never again the same.
And who could forget the time, early on in his mining career, when a stone slab the size of a boxcar busted loose from the low rock ceiling above and mashed him face-first into the soggy ground. He lay like that for two days and two nights, unable to move at all, while his headlamp subsided into ultimate black, and he, half-delirious, heard the whole time the purling of underground streams rocking gently by. This, he thought, is it; this is how I die.
His rescuers told him later that the softness of the earth and the freezing cold had, in part, saved him, but mainly, they whispered among themselves, it was the sheer strength of his will, and the strength of his muscle and bone.
Still, for all this, he loved his work. He loved the whole lifestyle, loved it with his body and soul. He loved the sound of sluicing water, the smell of wet mineral and adamantine stone. He loved the vitreous air where he worked (and worked), the air itself exuding sparseness, the reek of ozone and pine. He loved the sandy tailing ponds, their poisonous waters, the sound of the ravens grokking at him from the firs all around the mine, and the firs themselves stunted and dark and weird, crepitating with human-like moans. He loved all the magpie and the chipmunks and the fat brown marmots – “whistle pigs,” he called them – sunning themselves in the sharp western sunlight the short summers long; he loved the arsenic-burned rocks they scorched their bellies on.
He loved the massive gray shadows that tilted the ground, and the white dusty earth that the ubiquitous mountains cast their shadows upon.
He loved Sugarloaf peak in spring, with its necktie of mist and wig of snow, and the ragged mountains beyond poking the sky – and that sky forever, in his memory, tarnished like zinc, or a verdigris stone.
The rarified air he could never get enough of: the glassy gales in autumn and the mean winter wind pouring down from the milky sky above, rushing through the conifers in sporadic bursts and blowing the black cliffs bare of vapor and snow, showing naked chines of rock – rock everywhere, the smell of rock, rock rearing up into the high-altitude air, angular walls all along the roads that led up to the mines.
To him this was worth ten years of life.
And his life was not yours, or mine.
Our final meeting came on my last day of work, before I moved out of the San Juans for good. He was just coming on shift, swing. He stood at the entrance of the shaft, half turned away. A long shadow from the mouth of the cave fell diagonally across him, and in his hardhat and yellow slicker, the hard rock miner looked like one about ready to fight fires, or cyclones. His headlamp was not turned on yet. His boots were covered in year-old muck; his gloves poked partially out his bib. For some reason, then, I do not know why, he turned to me and waved goodbye. Then he swiveled back around and lumbered alone into the black dripping shaft, where no light shone at all, and then he disappeared forever from my site,
underground.
April 28th, 2010 at 1:25 am
there are almost two stories here. I do not recognize the visuals, but the mentals are like old friends…
always a pleasure to read you.
April 28th, 2010 at 1:30 am
What do you call this? To me, it’s not quite fiction, and it’s not quite poetry. I kind of like it–definitely creates a mood, though your diction is a little odd and overly descriptive for my taste.
April 28th, 2010 at 8:33 pm
This is truly beautiful, details reminiscent of some of your other writing, but very, very different. You could not describe it differently, better, or more minimally and produce the same effect.
April 29th, 2010 at 7:52 am
That’s beautiful. I understand it all too well.
I’m from the coal fields of WV (a few miles from the famous Matewan). I’ve lost many cousins to the mines. Whether they die from Black Lung, a cave in, or a mystery illness, the mines always claim them, and it’s always ugly.
May 1st, 2010 at 4:34 am
My Friend,
Why do I get the feeling there’s “another” novel on the way….Ray, you are blessed with talent and we both know that you are not wasting it. I hope another is on it’s way for, My Friend, it’s meant to be.
Best of Regards,
Denny
June 7th, 2011 at 1:54 am
Sounds like this miner was someone close to heart. Great story. I can truly relate growing up in Colorado surrounded with hard rock mines.
October 25th, 2011 at 2:31 pm
Dear Mr. Harvey:
Today I was reminiscing about my father, who passed in 1998. He was born in Lake City, CO. in 1933.
I was thinking about the many gifts he had given me as a child, one of the best is the San Juan mountains.
I was 6 or 7 years old when I made my first Jeep trip up the Umcompaghre Peak. This mountain peak was the stuff of legend in our family. The story goes that my great-grandfather made a bet with someone that he could get his nickel-plated bicycle up the mountain and down. And, according to my grandmother, he did it. This is also documented in the historical museum in Lake City, along with other stories about him and his brother, Paul.
And it was a Google I did on my great-uncle Paul that brought me to the ode you created to your friend. He was known (at least until I read your piece) as the last of the hard rock miners in Colorado. There was an article printed in a Denver newspaper when he died about him. One of my cousins sent it to me, but I am sorry to say I can’t find it right this minute.
Anyway, what I wanted to tell you was that they seemed so similar, your friend and my uncle. Paul had lost his leg during the construction of the Million Dollar Highway. He was a “blaster”, someone involved in the exploding of the dynamite used to make way for the highway through that rock.
He never married, but in the last family reunion he came to that I attended in July of 1988, he was surrounded by around 58 of us. He was incredible to me.
I don’t really know why I am writing all this to you. I guess my Father’s family roots are a source of pride for me, as they were to my father. So I felt some kind of sympatico with you writng about your friend. Men like these have a spirit full of so much courage that they certainly make an impression on a person who knows them. I easily read that in your ode for your friend, and felt like I wanted to share something I knew you would relate to. That is the beauty, but brutal mountains of SE colorado and the men who made their marks there.
Thanks for letting me share.
Sincerely, Renee Reed
October 25th, 2011 at 4:49 pm
Thank you very much for your beautiful comment, Ms. Reed.
October 26th, 2011 at 9:15 am
Renee,
My father just passed away August 2 of this year and he was a hero to me as well. He never worked in mines but he did grow up in Brooklyn, New York. Born 1937 to immigrants at the end of depression. He did the same for us 3 girls when it came to special gifts and the most important he ever gave me was the feeling of unconditional love. (trust me it was hard sometimes) He taught us about baseball and how he would sneak into the ball games to watch the Yankees play. His stories of pain growing up that he had a hard time talking about and the choice he made at 17 to join the Navy to get out of Brooklyn. He had stories to tell about his sister marrying into the mafia and having to sit around a table discussing how they could get his sister out of her situation and it lead to killing her husband. (never did, he died from a heart attach- they say) He just had some of the coolest stories and was such a huge part of what New York was about back then. I really miss him and his stories. Very, very funny man with the best jokes ever. I am proud to have him as a father. Still hard to use pas-tense.